I didn’t think that I had to learn to fail, but it seems that I am having to do so with this class. It is only the third week and I am dreading blog posts and feel very uneasy about the assignments to come. Having to read a lot is one thing, but then having to blog/write is another challenging task for me. At this point, I am not sure if blogging about something of interest would make the difference with my writer’s block.
Don’t get me wrong, I am absolutely playing around in this digital world. As a matter of fact, spending a lot of time reading fellow classmates blogs and professionals that I am following (wishing my work could be like theirs). It’s helping in the sense that it has opened my eyes to a lot of perspectives that I never thought about or simply naïve towards. Yet, at the same time, I feel so inadequate not being able to come up these critical questions and deeper thoughts. On top of that, not having the skills to write eloquently. Therefore, ashamed to write anything at all; feeling as if what I have to write isn’t worth cloud space.
I thought I would fail at my first meme, but oddly enough, that didn’t happen. It wasn’t easy because I wanted to state the obvious, but then I realized that’s not what a real clever meme would entail (at least that’s what I think). It definitely took a while before I came up with what I thought was a pretty good meme.
Then, there was curation day. Looking through what others have posted, I really had no idea where to start. I am thinking, my professor has already put a ton of helpful tools links and my classmates are also doing the same. So, what else am I supposed to add to it; I survived curation day this week, but what am going to do for the next 7 weeks!?
I also took more time exploring #walkmyworld and Twitter Chats, but still not understanding it completely. Not to mention, somewhat intimidated to dive right into playing in either field unknown. I know I know…I’ll inevitably have to; otherwise, how else would I truly know if I fail at this or not.
I must admit that I am scared to fail; I don’t know what I am doing. I keep coming back to all my frustrations. For example, I spent over eight hours today (and more over the week) on my blog trying to figure things out! Although I finally got a lot accomplished on my own, there is still quite a bit of quirks that has bugged me all day! What’s worse is that it looks like I’ve made no improvements on my page! In any case, I am in it for the long haul. So, here I go…continuing to play in this digital playground. Now, I must go make some comments.